Tuesday, 1 January 2013
Inspiration In 2013
The old year has crept away with all it's good times and bad and left behind it's customary gift for allowing it to share 365 days with us. That gift, of course, is experience.
I look back at the old year and am amazed at where I started and how it unfolded. My year started in fear and sadness. It seemed as if the universe was conspiring to pull the rug out from under my feet every way it could.
The daughter you know as Farm Girl wasn't recovering from her last grand mal seizure. Life revolved around caring for her, pulling strings to get her in to see the best neurologist in the country and caring for her children. Tests results were not good. She was having almost continuous small seizures and the body cannot withstand that for very long.
I was away from home a great deal, staying at the farm, and my beloved Sarah cat was ill. For eleven years that, once feral, cat had been a constant source of comfort to me. As terrified as she was of people, she never bit or scratched a soul. She loved me so much the vet asked me to leave the room because they couldn't hear her heart for the purring she was directing my way. She couldn't be saved and continued to purr for me until her last breath.
They say trouble comes in threes and my tenant stopped paying rent and was destroying my rental property. A long and costly legal battle began to evict her and an equally long and costly renovation began to make the place saleable.
I often looked at this old postcard on my desk and wondered if things would ever get any better.
So, I chose a word to focus on and made a little sign to hang on my bedroom wall. ~
It reminded me that I might not be able to change everything around me, but I could search for ways to be at peace with each day. It took months to begin to sink in and become part of who I was. Little by little, I learned to live in the moment and not dwell in the past. I learned to accept the good in the day and not anticipate terrible things that may happen tomorrow. I was not running the universe nor was I responsible for every bad thing that happened in it. I began to feel a true sense of peace within myself.
I still miss Sarah but I know I had something very special with her. I've had many wonderful four legged friends and I'm very, very lucky to have had one that was so in tune with me, and I with her, that her absence is still felt so acutely a year later.
The rental property is in better condition than it ever was and on the market waiting for a new family to love it as much as my parents did, when it was their home.
Best of all, is that Farm Girl responded well to new medications and is back to running her farm and caring for her large family with all her old passion and joy!
I wouldn't dream of starting into this new year without a word!
I have chosen Inspiration for 2013. The Oxford dictionary describes it as: The process of being mentally stimulated to do or feel something; esp. to do something creative: "flashes of inspiration".
Inspiration, in my belief, isn't something that comes in a lightning bolt from the sky. You have to go looking for it. It's all around me in the people I know and the natural world. It's in books, art, music and film. It's all over the Internet and the airwaves. It's in our houses of faith and our institutions of learning. Most certainly it is there in the people who are working for positive change in our world!
I'm going to seek it out and pass as much of it on as I can to you in 2013!
Feel free to download any of these images if you are inspired to use them.
Here's a black and white version of the postcard as well. ~
You didn't know how much your friendship and kind words meant to me last year, did you? You didn't have any idea that you were a large part of my finding peace. I wonder how many people you have helped and inspired. We never really know, do we? Now you know of one who thanks you from the bottom of her heart and wishes you a wonderful and happy new year!
Have a day filled with inspiration!
I'm sharing this with Jennifer's Sometimes Creative Life, Word Of The Year (2013) Link Party, Word Of The Year Link Party